This has been a rough morning.
7:45 am and Sam is burning up with a fever of 101.8, he has nausea and is probably dehydrated. He's really sick. For the next several hours it is a battle to get his temperature down and by 12:30 pm it is 98.8. Thank you, Lord!!!!
Cold compresses, Advil, Tylenol, Ice Chips, Shower, Formula, Meds - 6 different ones! It's a full-time job.
It's now 1:15 pm and Sam is starting his drip feed. He will be connected to that pump until 11:00 pm tonight trying to ingest three 8 oz cans for a total of 1125 calories and with the morning feed of 250 calories from 1/2 can of the other formula, he will take in 1375 calories today. That's the most he's been able to consume; not good enough to keep his weight up, but we'll take it.
This day has been hard for me. I miss my bright-eyed husband. I went to give him a hug this morning and I accidentially squeezed him too hard and it hurt his neck. I cried. I needed to. Sam comforted me - ironic, since I was trying to comfort him. All of this is hard to take sometimes. But, we press on and pray hard. I know God is listening and I remember Romans 5:3-5 "we rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance, perseverance, character; and character hope. And hope does not dissapoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us." We hope in God.
This will be a long "holiday" weekend of temperature checks and meds management, but Sam only has 9 more radiation treatments and one last chemo before he gets a break from the treatments. Then the long wait will begin to see if it worked. But, that's too far in the future. It's best to live in the moment for this process. The hardest part is yet to come - the chemo. What does the Bible say in Matthew 6, vs. 34... "Do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." Truth.
There is lots to do around the house to keep me busy while Sam sleeps. I am grateful to be busy.
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